A Warp In The Time Space Continuum

Is it 5'oclock yet?

Thanksgiving has came and went. I tried my damnedest to eat half a turkey, personally. I've gained... nothing. I'm feeling, like... this:

Note: This is not actually a picture of me, but a picture of my soul.

On the upside, I feel great. This part of pregnancy is supposed to be the 'glow' period. I'm not exactly radiating, but I don't feel like crap in the slightest. That both comforts me and worries me. With several weeks to my next appointment, I'm getting bored. And only a week has passed. Now I can really feel the baby kick though. Kick me right in the bladder. As soon as she arrives, she is so grounded.

I try to stay busy, within reason. I've was given the go to walk and I've had the stamina, so I've been doing a little shopping and errands. My approach is preparing for the possibility of not being able to at any given moment. So it's been productive. Yet, usually when I'm busy the time will fly by. Not so of this past week. This week felt like a month. Explain that Einstein.

Seriously?

At Least I Got The Damn Turkey

Today was INSANITY.

Yesterday was crazy too, but I was so eager to get out of the house and get some fresh air that I didn't notice it was pouring rain and freezing. I did too much walking yesterday. I did too much of everything yesterday. But I felt euphoric. Today I had a simple plan. I had to get a Turkey for my mother, buy some toilet paper and head home. But just as I was waiting for my sister to come meet me, I got severe cramping and BH contractions.

Not what I'm talking about.

My appointment was supposed to be at 2, I didn't get out of there until past 4. I ended up getting over to my parents house nearby, which took me 30 minutes to walk 6 blocks. Luckily, my sisters Godmother drove me home a few hours later because no way was I walking anywhere. I spent the rest of the wait feeling betrayed by my body and guilty about not getting home on time.

How I feel

It seems like I didn't have these issues just 2 weeks ago. Why am I all of a sudden symptomatic? Speaking to my father helped a lot though. I did have symptoms all along. But since I didn't know what was causing them and listening to ER doctors telling me it's normal and everything looked fine; I sort of "walked it off." Now that I know what's wrong, there is anxiety behind every ache and pain. Needless to say, I'm not going out until Tuesday. I need to somehow convince myself that my anxiety right now is rational. At least I know what's actually going on. But I was unprepared, and that makes me feel like this:

This can't be good.

What an excellent day for an exorcism.

Joseph has been sick, on and off, since October 18th. First he had a bad cold and then he had a major ear infection. He seemed to be doing well for a few days until he woke up this morning looking like this:

Hi mom!

Something is going around. Two others that attended my nephew's party this weekend got sick too. Joseph's doctor said it's a 24 hour stomach virus (Norovirus). But it feels like forever to me. This is me right now...

FML

What a week to be diagnosed with this CPP thing. Today alone I chased after a miserable toddler (who never had repeat vomiting before so was terrified), bending, lifting, chasing, bathing, started 3 loads of laundry then had to walk him a mile to the doctor to get a prescription for electrolytes. Nature is playing a cruel joke right now. And I haven't even begun the "big disinfect" spree that must occur when he feels better. Halfway to the pharmacy I got cramping enough to have to sit down. Then I realized, my kid cannot get sick for the rest of my pregnancy.

And meanwhile, back in reality...

This changes things. A dear friend of mine offered to take Joseph out this weekend. We will probably cancel considering I won't be sure if he's contagious. But despite his bloodwork being clear for any immune deficiency, this kid catches a cold making eye contact.

Being a supermom (not), I have no idea how to respond to a sick person while simultaneously not moving abruptly. Is that even possible? I wish there were some advice somewhere on the subject. Actually, I wish I had telekinesis... I'm dumbstruck. Now I'm just hoping I didn't contract it. I guess I will find out in a few days.

How Do I Feel?

I was looking for a mood gadget for the sidebar and didn't come across anything that I liked. Then I asked myself, how do I actually feel anyway? Being a Gemini (hoping it's not instead, latent Schizophrenia), I'm known to have mixed emotions, conflicted feelings and mood spasms. These usually occur with a degree of humor and class. #Not. Enough said. Then while surfing the web I came across a picture that summed it up perfectly.

How I feel today.

I mostly feel that way because my place looks like this:

My apartment.

Luckily, tomorrow is Monday and I can call the doctors office and talk to someone about housework. And since I have to go out tomorrow to pay some bills anyway, I'll be picking up some paper plates, a trash pail for each room and a copy of this book: